For Kon

[thethirdwonder]

Cassie felt good. Her head felt light and her cares felt...like nothing! Her movements felt free and she did she mention she didn't have a care in the world. Stupid boys. Who needs them? Except she was a boy, so did she need herself? She bursts out giggling instead of answering it, because it seemed like the thing to do.

A small part in the part of her brain registered the fact she was drunk. Or at least that was her best guess since she'd never had alcohol before. Though she wasn't sure if she had any tonight, since all she remembered Eric giving her was pineapple juice....ooooh! Alcohol pineapple juice! That must have been it! So she had to be drunk. Because this is what she imagined being drunk felt like. Why did people say it was bad? It felt so good!

She wondered what it would be like to fly drunk.

Giggling to herself again, she approached the Titans Treehouse, weaving slightly as she walked, only her still remaining reflexes putting one foot in front of the other.

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Thankfully, Cassie felt too good at the moment to notice how fast he pulled away. She still clung to Kon since for some reason her feet were beginning to not cooperate with her anymore. Silly feet.

She just beamed at him. "Yes okay, let's go!"

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Kon breathed a sigh of relief. Good. He could get her upstairs and he could get her into bed and maybe she wouldn't remember any of this the next morning. Because he couldn't believe that he'd kissed Cassie when she was a boy. That was as bad as kissing Tim or Bart or something. Wasn't it?

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Cassie followed Kon upstairs willingly, if slow from dragging her heavy feet. Silly boy feet, getting in the way. She even didn't protest as he got her into her bed, especially since she was suddenly feeling very sleepy, like a light switch was turned off in her head. But she still gave Kon a sleepy smile before he could go. "G'night Kon."

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"'Night, Cassie," Kon said softly, glancing at her one last time before shutting the door.

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Cassie woke up the next morning...and wish she hadn't. Her head was pounding, her mouth was dry and her whole body felt like a lead weight. She just lay there for a few long minute, crawling her way to consciousness so she could figure out why she felt this way.

She struggled to sit up...and it came to her in a rush as she did. The party. Eric kissing her. Her obviously getting drunk. Her kissing Kon as a boy. She groaned and stopped trying to sit up, instead curling into a ball. She felt horrible and now it wasn't even the hang over. Kon had already been freaked out by the whole boy thing. Kissing him might have been the last straw. What had she done?

A small part of her brain noticed that she had her own body back. Which was a small plus.

She still wasn't moving from this spot.

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Hangover, hangover, what to do for a hangover?

Well, somewhere in his head, he knew that the cause of a hangover was dehydration, so he got a large glass of water and some of the painkillers that were left over from his concussion and knocked softly on Cassie's door. He resolutely did not think about last night and the fact that she'd kissed him. That he'd kissed him. It was too weird to think about.

"Hey, sleepyhead, you up in there?"

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Oh god. It was Kon. Cassie just pulled the covers over her head and hoped he went away. All kinds of awful scenarios were going through her head and the fact that she felt all gross wasn't helping either. She just wanted to die.

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Kon frowned when he didn't here her. Damn it. He should have stayed inside and made sure she was okay. Slept on the floor or something. He knocked again, a little harder and faster. "Cassie? Are you in there?" If she didn't answer this time, he was going to open the door. Just to check.

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The harder knock made her flinch but Cassie still didn't respond. She hugged her knees to her chest to fight back the queasy feeling in her stomach from the hangover that was just multiplied by the stress. If Kon didn't go away soon, she was in danger of throwing up in her bed, but even that wasn't enough to make her consider moving and facing him.

Sometimes she dropped all of her fronts and stopped trying to be brave all the time. This was one of those times.

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Kon opened the door carefully, making sure not to look at where he knew the bed was. "Cassie? I have some water. And painkillers. I thought that might help with the hangover. Do you...mind if I...you're there, right? Or are you asleep? I hope you're there and I'm not talking to thin air because that would be really embarrassing."

Not that he really thought that Cassie had managed to slip by him with a hangover.

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Cassie'd managed to stay still for a pretty long time, holding her breath as he asked if she was there. And she almost made it except her stomach picked that moment to roll and she gripped her tummy with a short moan to stop herself from throwing up in the bed. While she succeeded in that, she knew she had alerted Kon to her presence, but she still refused to move.

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A moan. A very bad-sounding moan and not one of the...well, no, he wasn't going there. But also a very female-sounding moan. Kon sucked in a breath and turned to look. "Cassie. There's water. And whatever painkiller they have on stock. Just...take it? Please?" Or else he'd even feel worse about everything that had happened the last few days.

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It was the pleading. She felt bad enough after everything else so she gave in and crawled out from under the blankets, sitting up with her arms still hugged around her middle. Cassie didn't look up from the blankets as she just miserably held out her hand for the painkillers.

"Thanks Kon." She said softly, "You didn't have to do that."

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Kon moved a little closer and sat on the bed next to her. His hand brushed hers softly as he poured the pills into her open hand and he held the water out for her to take when she was ready. "Of course I did. I've never had one, but I've heard that hangovers are pretty nasty and I wasn't going to leave you to deal with it yourself."

And if he was lucky, she didn't remember the kiss at all.

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Cassie slipped the pills into her mouth and swallowed them with a long drink of water after taking the cup from Kon, still not looking up at him. Because she did remember the kiss. Both of them. And she was prepared to lose two of the boys who meant the most to her on the island.

"I'm sorry...About last night."

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"You were drunk," Kon said, effectively avoiding what, exactly, it was that she was sorry about. "That excuses a lot of things." He looked at her for a long minute. "Except for maybe why you got drunk in the first place."

He moved closer and tucked a lock of hair behind her ear. "Cassie, what's going on?"

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Still not looking up, she brought her legs up to her chest again, as if for protection, despite leaning into his slight touch. "I...I just felt so bad about the whole being a boy thing. It was awful." She wasn't about to mention to his face how part of that was how Kon had made her feel by not even wanting to even look at her. "Eric invited me to a party his friends were throwing so I went. I don't even remember drinking honestly."

She sighed as she said softly, "And then as if it was wasn't weird enough...Eric kissed me. While I was a boy. And then I kissed you even though I know you didn't want it and...I'm so sorry Kon." She felt so...defeated.

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Kon tensed. He'd been hoping that they weren't going to talk about the kiss, but he hadn't heard about the other kiss. Eric? The friend that she had? The one that knew Serena and Nate?

"Rewind that," he said softly. "What's that about Eric?" His stomach flipped a few times.

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...Oops.

Cassie hadn't even been thinking as she answered Kon's question, just replying with a stream of words. She hadn't meant to tell Kon about that. She licked her dry lips and took another drink of water as she pondered not saying anything at all.

Then she sighed. "It was not a big deal. I was a boy and he's gay, so he kissed me." She tried just waving it off, hoping Kon would let it go.

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Kon set his jaw. "Well, you're not a boy, whatever you looked like, and you're my girlfriend, so he had no business kissing you." Not that they'd actually gone on a date, yet, but that wasn't the point. They were going to. She'd said yes and unless she took it back, it was as good as dating, right? Right.

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"Kon don't." Cassie said, her voice sounding more Wonder Girl then Cassie despite her hang over. Then she sighed, taking a deep breath. "He regretted it the moment he did it. It's no big deal okay?"

She couldn't help self as she turned her head away from him for a moment and muttered, "At least Eric would look at me..."

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Kon sucked in a breath and clenched his fists. "So sue me, Cassie! I could hardly look at Tim or Bart either. It's a little weird when the girl I'm head over heels for suddenly turns into a guy. Maybe someone else would have an easier time with it, but..." But it was more than a little weird being emotionally attracted to Cassie when she was a guy.

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"And that's supposed to make it all better?" Cassie retorted stubbornly. "I was freaking out Kon! Do you have any idea how that felt? To not be in my own body and to have someone I care about not even want to be around me?" And fulfilled every fear she had about their relationship since before she even knew who he was. That she wasn't enough.

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"So was I! I didn't not want to be around you. But it's a little weird to have your girlfriend suddenly be your boyfriend, especially after Bart kissed me!" It was his stomach churning that pointed him to the fact that he'd said something he probably shouldn't have.

"That's not...I didn't mean..." Except he did, of course. There wasn't any real way that he could unsay that Bart had kissed him.

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Cassie had opened her mouth for an angry reply...but all the fight drained out of her as she looked at him with wide eyed shock. She leaned away from him, as if needing to protect herself from his words. "Bart...what?" She asked in a small voice, unable to hide the tiny bit of betrayal in her voice. Eric was one thing...Bart was something else from a completely different planet.